all im hoping is that keeping good company wears off on me..already eliminated the bad
im friends with people that drive around in 745s and z06s im putting in my time hopefully its my turn soon

so im offically a real fuckin boss, and you fuckin know it you basically tried to suck my dick you fuckin faggot, then you go and try to start more shit. i almost got the two biggest roid raging guidos i know, who are completely massive by the way to come fucking murder you. youre lucky you failed miserably. this is one thing that will not get ruined for me

hm

so i guess it all pulled through. first week at the new shop i made triple what i made at gamestop in a week. got a brand new car. things are working out for once. im gona be positive for a while

oh irony

i just re read some of my entries and one was about never competing over a girl
and the last girl i was into was all about that and it was with a close friend of mine
so weird that i wrote about it for no reason and then it happened
either way i lose again as always

good news is i got my neck done

and i forgot to mention

another failed attempt at finding a girl i like that likes me back
i could make an epic dialogue about the whole thing but for once i dont feel like it. basically im hurt and dead out with nothing like always. fuck.

lets recap what i did this friday and saturday

...

yep

never good enough

my next tattoo should be never good enough across my forehead..because im not ever.
aparently im not old enough and dont have enough tattoos to be considered for anything other than a "platonic relationship" woe is me superficial world. there was some other bullshit reason that some other girl didnt like me and i was told that i shouldnt be interested in someone that is attracted to such superficial things. trouble is i'm well aware of that... but i still like this girl anyway. the only glimmer of hope is that the last girl i was told the same deal about i cant remember..so hopefully ill be forgetting this one in the near future. ugh

and its getting depressing that my only present friend is a 30 year old roid raging monster but he really looks out for me
ive been going to the gym every day now and im getting way stronger and bigger so thats sick
im probably gona get my throat done next time lenny guests at our shop which should be in two months because well im over it ..annnd itll be free

all i have to keep my mind off of being a failure / apparently hopeless romantic male is to think about being a huge tattooed covered monster that even less people will be attracted to

i am so fucking tired right now its unbelievable